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If I thought I was a hermit before I left for home, I have become far MORE of a hermit. I guess I just don't handle crisis well. At least not after the fact. My mom seems to think I'm awesome at keeping my cool under pressure. Yeah, well, mom, that's because you fall apart. And she did true to form. On the 5th of March, my dad had a heart attack. A big one. And it took 2 days for my mom to call me. I don't know what she was thinking. She was a TOTAL basket case when I got there. It was crazy. She always says my dad is the strong one, so she turns into a weeping crying mess when anything happens. And her favorite line is your father with handle it. Now I love you mom, but maybe if you handled some of this shit yourself, he wouldn't have had the damn heart attack?
I am apparently venting my frustration at my mother on my computer. The shrink at the hospital said this would be good for me. Since I don't have a lot of people to talk to, she said to keep a diary. So, I thought that was kind of lame so I'm putting here.
I had plans with Spencer that day. And I didn't even call. All I did was book a flight, take a cab to the airport, fly home and go directly to the hospital. And I have only been home since Thursday. But while I was there….man….I didn't stop. Not once. There was so much to do. Talk to doctors about the kinds of changes that had to be made when he came home, if came home. I mean at first, they weren't sure he was going to come home. He was supposed to have a triple bypass. But they wanted to try a stint first. And the stint worked, and is still holding. But if he didn't change the way things were, his eating habits, his stress levels, his exercise habits, he was going to end up having that triple bypass. So, I not only took over for things that needed to be dealt with, bill that needed paying, repairs that had to made on the house just…whatever had to be taken care of, I also had to make sure my mom went shopping and bought the right foods, and changed the recipes she made…and I am now exhausted.
I came home Thursday and slept until Saturday evening. Got up, ate a little and went straight back to bed until it was time for work Monday morning.
And now it's Tuesday and I'm thinking I need another week off just to recuperate.
My mom calls me all day asking about food and what to do when I left her instructions. For a while my dad is on a very strict (and yes, I know) very bland diet. But it's not forever. My mom seems to think he's going to starve. He just rolls his eyes and eats the fish and veggies she cooks and doesn't even complain. It's all in her head. But I love her dearly. I do. She's my mom. She just needs to see how this could have gone in the other direction and be glad that dad is okay, and that as long as she keeps up the healthy lifestyle he needs, he's going to be around for a very long time to come.
I am apparently venting my frustration at my mother on my computer. The shrink at the hospital said this would be good for me. Since I don't have a lot of people to talk to, she said to keep a diary. So, I thought that was kind of lame so I'm putting here.
I had plans with Spencer that day. And I didn't even call. All I did was book a flight, take a cab to the airport, fly home and go directly to the hospital. And I have only been home since Thursday. But while I was there….man….I didn't stop. Not once. There was so much to do. Talk to doctors about the kinds of changes that had to be made when he came home, if came home. I mean at first, they weren't sure he was going to come home. He was supposed to have a triple bypass. But they wanted to try a stint first. And the stint worked, and is still holding. But if he didn't change the way things were, his eating habits, his stress levels, his exercise habits, he was going to end up having that triple bypass. So, I not only took over for things that needed to be dealt with, bill that needed paying, repairs that had to made on the house just…whatever had to be taken care of, I also had to make sure my mom went shopping and bought the right foods, and changed the recipes she made…and I am now exhausted.
I came home Thursday and slept until Saturday evening. Got up, ate a little and went straight back to bed until it was time for work Monday morning.
And now it's Tuesday and I'm thinking I need another week off just to recuperate.
My mom calls me all day asking about food and what to do when I left her instructions. For a while my dad is on a very strict (and yes, I know) very bland diet. But it's not forever. My mom seems to think he's going to starve. He just rolls his eyes and eats the fish and veggies she cooks and doesn't even complain. It's all in her head. But I love her dearly. I do. She's my mom. She just needs to see how this could have gone in the other direction and be glad that dad is okay, and that as long as she keeps up the healthy lifestyle he needs, he's going to be around for a very long time to come.
